What Feels Like A Million Years Later...

I haven't been blogging (obviously). I have been, well, working. All. The. Time. I work full time for an insurance company and one shift a week for the hospital, just to keep my foot in the door. It is exhausting.

On top of all the working, I have been planning my best friend Katie's bachelorette party along with assisting her sister with the bridal shower. Since I have never been a maid/matron of honor before this, I had no idea how much work goes into this. We are going to Sarasota for the weekend for the bachelorette, spending time shopping at St. Armand's Circle, going to the beach, and going out. It should be amazing.

While I can't wait for all of Katie's events to begin next week, I am most excited to Eugene and my newest adventure: homeowner. For the past month we have been obsessing/looking at homes, trying to find our dream starter home.

So... we found it today. Our dream/starter house. We made an offer today and I couldn't be more nervous/excited. It is a short sale so it will take about 6 weeks to find out what the bank thinks.

I might not make it 6 weeks.

Help.

Off

Sometimes I feel like something is off in my life. Like something, some component, is missing, that if I just had that one thing, I would be perfectly happy. Gloriously happy. Gross people out happy. I'm not sure where this comes from. Eugene and I are great. I think this is actually the best we've ever been. I enjoy my classes, and have rediscovered my love of being on an actual campus. I got a job at the hospital I did my externship at and am just waiting for my start date. I don't mind being at the spa my few hours a week, working at the desk. I have wonderful friends. So where does this feeling come from?

I just don't know. I have gotten better at ignoring it, at pushing it aside and being thankful for all that I have. It's just that sometimes I can't and I feel unfulfilled in some way.

Does anyone ever get this way? What do you do about it?

A New Hobby

I have been playing around with my camera, which is nothing fancy, but I figure I should get better before I spend a small fortune on another one. Anyways, I took a bunch of pictures at my sister-in-law's wedding, and have been trying to play around with editing them. I have been using Photoshop.com's online editor since I haven't bought the real thing yet. There are a lot less functions, but it is fine for just starting out. Here is a sneak preview...

Confessions

I have a problem... I am a shopaholic. I have denied my issues long enough and am finally admitting that my name is Sheenah, and I am a shopaholic.

'What are you talking about?' you may ask. Well, since I finished the class portion of school, I have been on a shopping spree for no good reason. Yes, I have lost weight and needed some new clothes, but I went a bit overboard. And by a bit I mean a lot. I used Loft like it was my own personal closet, have snapped up everything that could possibly go into our home from Marshall's, and have scoured Home Goods for deals. I mainly buy items on sale so I can justify my purchases in my head. I have to stop.

Of course, as I am writing this, I am trolling through Anthropologie's site, thanking God that the closest store is in Tampa. I don't like online shopping because I am a crazily tactile person who has to touch things to determine if I want to buy them. At least it limits the spending.

After realizing what I was doing to my credit card statement, I have put a stop on the spending. For the most part. We have a trip to Alabama for a wedding in less than two weeks and some fun things that we want to plan. I need to try to be responsible and save up for them, so no more shopping for me. I've got a cruise to save up for.

What do you have a hard time saying no to?